The dentist chair

So today i was on the dentist chair for 90 mins enduring the high pitch drill, the sickening smell of enamel vaporising into air, and trying my best not to  gag.. .. all that water back of throat).

Throughly disorientating!

Then  suddenly he  asked me a strange question , 'do you do a lot of  swimming?!'.

Wth? 

Do i do a lot of..... swimming???

Aparrently, swimmers are able to control their breathing very well. (I guess he's done enough of these dental operations to tell the difference with a relaxed breathe vs  a stiffen eractic one.)

Up until that point, I hadn't even  realize i was unconsciously controlling my breaths evenly to relax myself ( i mean what else could you do on the dentist chair at the mercy of the drill right?)

I was kinda proud the op went well (even though my only contribution was my even breaths) as I layed there as still as possible, like a fish waiting to be gutted.

So yeah, well done andrew!

You survived the trauma, even  drew a compliment, and got out.. with  Rm1100 hole in the pocket.

And oh, finally after 7 hours i got my face back (one side was seriously  dead  numb) due to the localized anesthesia injection. 

In case u think I'm just  exaggerating, but no.. it's the 'tooth' nothing but the tooth.. so help me God.

Ta.

Chin (aka Smelk)

At first i was hesitant if i should invite Smelk (to hike) with us in Puchong  (circa 2018/9). Only a year earlier i had sent him to the hospital (he had suffered a stroke) and i didn't want to risk another incident with him in the  middle of the forest.)

But I'm so glad i did.

He was like duck to water. Not only was he able to finish the hike, but  being surrounded by nature  I cld see  it did 'something' for him. It  rejuvenated his mind /soul. Not surprising that he would soon become a regular hiker with us. In time to come he got stronger and would accompany me as we explored the deeper areas (into some restricted zones, waterfalls etc).

Also, I enjoyed his quiet company.

Most of all i appreciated that he  shared a deep love for nature (not just hiking as an exercise ) but that he really truly enjoyed the energies of the forest. In that sense we were a kindred spirit. So it's not surprising one day i found him with a plastic bag, collecting the trash inconsiderate hikers would leave behind (on the trails). He was not just a 'taker' only  (consumer mentality) , but a 'giver' doing his bit in keeping the forest pristine; he took ownership of that hill forest. That pretty much characterised Chin, even though he didn't hv much material goods to his name, but  he was a genuine giver, of his time, of his friendship, his knowledge and yes when he had an extra buck, he'd offer to pay your drink too.

(no he didn't drink alcohol, just teh si kurang manis ) 

Chin made many friends on the trail  and strike conversations easily with strangers. And he was always the charming gentleman with the ladies .

Towards the last year, his knees would act up and he limited his forays. The vaccine also adversely affected him (he told me) as he experienced tremors in his hands, and it showed in his gait.
I was always hoping he would get better and resume our hikes together, but that was not meant to be as his health deteriorated. Only when we saw his rapid loss of weight did we suspect it was something more sinister (you would never suspect it from his conversations/ whatsapp. The few of us who followed up with him, we too never really got a straight answer from him what was actually wrong in his body. Later i only heard from another that it was  prostate cancer, but i nvr did hear  it from him.

He lived 'one day at a time' and unwilling to bother those around him, (even though many times we offered)  and that was  how it seemed  till the very end.
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Goodbye Chin. (aka Smelk).. I will miss you. 

Two trees

 

Mark 2:5-12 

When Jesus saw their faith, He said to the paralytic, “Son, your sins are forgiven you.”

6 And some of the scribes were sitting there and reasoning in their hearts, 7 “Why does this Man speak blasphemies like this? (A)Who can forgive sins but God alone?”

8 But immediately, when Jesus perceived in His spirit (DIANOIA) that they reasoned thus within themselves, (DIALOGIZNOIA) He said to them, “Why do you reason about these things in your hearts? 9 (B)Which is easier, to say to the paralytic, ‘Your sins are forgiven you,’ or to say, ‘Arise, take up your bed and walk’? 10 But that you may know that the Son of Man has [a]power on earth to forgive sins”—He said to the paralytic, 11 “I say to you, arise, take up your bed, and go to your house.” 12 Immediately he arose, took up the bed, and went out in the presence of them all, so that all were amazed and (C)glorified God, saying, “We never saw anything like this!”

Today i learnt of two Greek new testament words. 

*Dianoia (die-ya-no-ya) spiritual discernment, perceive from within  Received when we eat  from Tree of Life  (Jesus) 

*Dialogiznoia ( logic, reasoning), our intellect. From the tree of knowledge of good and evil. 

There were two trees in the Garden of Eden. One was the 'Tree of life' , the other the 'Tree of knowledge of good and evil' (NOT just evil only ). Eve (and Adam) were deceived to eat from the 2nd tree, as they felt it most desirable. The moment they ate it, their eyes were opened, and they became like God ( who is the rightful arbiter of truth) 

Was it for selfish reasons (as suggested by the devil serpent) that God didn't want them to have this knowledge (of good n evil) . No, God knew it will be a burden to them and to their future offsprings (us). Furthermore, bcos of their disobedience, it brought sin (and death into this world). 

Even as one gets older, the perennial tasks of juggling the array of good and evil choices are adversely seen in our bodies (resulting in poor health bcos of stress ). Of course, the ramifications of sin are much more than just our physical health. It brought on a spiritual death, a separation from God the source of life itself. 

Inevitably, now  humans are tasked deciding what is 'good' and what is 'evil'. In some 'advance' societies ( ie. US), the 'woke culture' refuse to call the gender of a baby (it's a boy / it's a girl / oh it hasn't made its mind up yet.. duh? ), ... are we then to judge between what is good and evil? 

The fact is "truth" needs a moral compass 

We are not designed to handle this "knowledge of good and evil " (for what may seem right to us today, may not be so in future.) 

We are designed to eat from the tree of Life ( Jesus) where our trust and confidence lies, ie. in the One who loves us, and gave his life for us (that we may be raised to live w Him when our earth journey ends).

The flower stand

I wish i had taken a picture of the flower stand when i first unboxed it, the mess of parts unassembled strewn across my porch ; pieces of wood different lengths, configuration, and various 'holes' in strategic places for assembly ( ie.the screws, nuts, n bolts). 

The brain gets fogged trying to figure out how its susposed to fit together (btw did i mention that the assembly instructions was all in Chinese.. which I didn't know sh*t). I felt the pang of 'paralysis of analysis' unsure what i should do first. However, I knew regardless of 'unknowing' the full picture, i just needed to take a first step, and then the next step will be clearer. 

 I think its also true, the spiritual parallel when faced with indecision (analysis paralysis ) we just need to take the first step. By faith we take action (first step), then as we do, we can trust the holy spirit to guide us to the next.(course of action) Often times we want to see the whole picture in our minds first before we take the first step. It seems unnatural for us to 'move' w/out see the entire plan. I guess, that is what it means to 'walk in faith'. 

In the fall of fortified city Jerico, imagine following God s instruction to circle the city walls 7 times would result in the walls come tumbling down. But the first step of obedience is probably the most difficult. The walls of objections in our mind need to come tumbling down first, before our feet would move. In the end, it boils down to trust. God help us to trust. 

The hymn goes, it's so sweet to trust in Jesus. 

 • Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, Just to take Him at His Word; Just to rest upon His promise, And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!” 

 • Refrain: Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him! How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er; Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! Oh, for grace to trust Him more! 

 • Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus, Just to trust His cleansing blood; And in simple faith to plunge me ’Neath the healing, cleansing flood! • Yes, ’tis sweet to trust in Jesus, Just from sin and self to cease; Just from Jesus simply taking Life and rest, and joy and peace.

• I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee, Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend; And I know that Thou art with me, Wilt be with me to the end.